urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418 if you want to know about me...here bandgeek1418 2008-05-06T15:10:13Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:32303 2008-05-06T15:10:13Z 2008-05-06T15:10:13Z It's been forever...I don't think very many people get on this thing anymore...That sucks. Things for me are getting better all the time...After getting my heart broken...This time for real I realize that you can't always have what you want. I wanted him to be a part of my life but I guess that I'll have to move on. I found this really AMAZING guy. Me and him have been friends for quite some time...maybe 9 or 10 months, but now we're more. He asked me out and of course I accepted. How could I ever turn down someone as perfect as him. Enough about the boys...I leave for boot camp June 11...That is the first step for my brighter future...I'm kinda glad I'm leaving this life behind me...well the civilain life at least. I'm really excited but I am so scared about PT...I'm really bad with that I guess that exercize really isn't my thing....Well I hope everyone is doing ok...&hearts; urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:32130 2007-06-12T01:11:11Z 2007-06-12T01:11:11Z It's been forever since I've even got on this thing! Ya know...I'm now a senior...08!!! Lol. I am enlising into the United States Navy...tonight actually. I don't have a boyfriend anymore...I just run around and flirt wit so many people. I am in love...I have been since November 06, but things didn't work out. We still talk and he knows I love him, and I know he loves me. But...I have this HUGE crush on the sexiest firefighter in the world...He's gorgeuos!!!!! (I give up on spelling) I'm very happy with life right now...I have 3 jobs. Sonic Fashion Bug and Gymboree. I am a hard working girl!!!! I love going to the pool hall with my friends Cory and Adrian...The are my life!!! My best friend Amanda means to world to me...My life would be bleak without her. I love to meet new people...It's the best thing in to world for me because you all know how talkitive I am. I don't really like PHS that much...Alot of people are rude, but my friends are amazing and I would be completely lost with out them. Arizona is something else. We have the prettiest blue skies. We hardly ever get clouds or rain...But I miss Alabama too much. I hope that I will be able to go down there before they ship me out to boot camp! Well...This is pretty much all I have to say...! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:31966 2006-08-20T05:40:35Z 2006-08-20T05:40:35Z I got a job! OMG! and it is SO awesome...I work like 7 and a half hours everyday and I cant wait until it is time to go home. I like all of my bosses but my job is kinda hard. I was really luck to get it because they only hire 18+...by the way, I am 16. I only make $7 an hour, which is really cheap for out here, but it is better than nothing. I now have a boyfriend named Nick...he is really awesome, but sometimes I wonder if he is my type. I am doing well in school, my schedule is SO easy...I have English 3 Ceramics, Photo, and Spanish...not hard at all. I am offically a junior...I never thought that I would make it this far. My school is crazy...there are like alot of mexicans...and alot of crazy people....I know everyone thinks that people back home are rude...HAHAHAHA...you cant even say hi to people with out them being mean...It really sucks, and I hate it... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:31554 2006-07-22T20:25:25Z 2006-07-22T20:25:25Z Seems like for ever. Well...I made it somewhere in the world. I am in Phoenix Arizona right now, and having soooo much fun. I met this guy named Bob the other night through my dads girlfriend and he is awesome. I really like his style and attitude about everything. I plan on going to a show with him tonight. I really don't know what to do in this situation, I really like Bob, but I am emotionally involved with Robert. I don't know if I should go ahead and let loose with Bob or if I should stay devoted with Robert. My Alabama phone's service is canceled. I can't talk to Robert, so I amm tempted to forget he ixsists. A bit mean I know, but how could I just leave him hanging there, when I am way out here, and he is way over there. I really care for him alot, but if I don't leave him then we are all stuck where we started off. On to a bit more of a happier subject...I am going shopping WITH REAL MONEY! This is a first in a while. I dont have very amny clothes, and my jeans got ripped last night. It really sucked. I cant wait to see the malls stacked high with clothes my size I am sooooooo excited. It is so hot out here. Yesterday it was 118F. Yea one hundred and eightteen degrees. It does get pretty hot out here. I think that being around Bob adds to the temputure alittle. Oh well I guess that I will update later. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:31265 2006-06-01T02:10:06Z 2006-06-01T02:10:06Z none Hey! What is going on with all of ya'll? I noticed that no one wants to comment on my LJ. Figures. I guess thats what I get when I can't ever communicate with anyone. I just wanted to let all of you know that I love each and everyone of you that reads this livejournal, and I would really appreciate if you would comment.<br />Love Always,<br /> Lena Brooke Stringer urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:31105 2006-05-30T22:49:14Z 2006-05-30T22:51:24Z The TV Hey Yall I figured that I would let yall know that I am now free of the state. My dad got custody of me the other day. I live in Jackson. My address is 711 College Ave. Jackson AL 36545. I wouls like everyone to keep on touch with me. I love each and everyone of you. I have to let all of you know that I beleive I have found love once again. I cant really tell, but I am head over heels for this guy, and I beleive I have found everything that I have wanted in a guy. I wish that I could spend time with him, but he lives in Mobile. Josh is something else. I really think that I have found the one...at least for now.Josh means alot to me and I really like him alot. I wish that I could be with him, or at least that he would answer my calls. I know that I am a bit stupid for letting him do this to me, but I just can't get enough of him. I really care alot about him. I don't know what to do about my situation. I have been single since before graduation. Not that that matters, it's just the fact that I really want love and I want attention from someone whom I care about as much as they care about me. I hate Jackson so much. There is no one there. I wish that I lived in Mobile. It is so much better. I am gonna try to get a transfer to Satsuma, that way I can be with all of my friends. I really miss all of yall and want you all to keep in touch with me. Like I have wrote, my phone number is 769-6020, and my address is 711 College Rd. Jackson AL 36545.<br />I love each and everyone of you,<br />Lena Brooke Stringer urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:30735 2006-05-08T21:45:29Z 2006-05-08T21:45:29Z Hey Ya'll. How are you doing? Me? I am well. Just sitting in the library here, writing all of you in my livejournal. I have noticed that noone has commented, I really don't like that fact. I wish at least some one will comment. My car got fixed. Cool huh? I have new cell phone, but I bet that is old news for all of ya'll my # is 769-6020 Call me when you have some time on the weekends. I would enjoy that. I guess I will let everyone go. Im praying for all of you, and hope you can keep in touch with me.<br />Love Always,<br />Lena Brooke Stringer urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:30489 2006-05-01T21:46:45Z 2006-05-01T21:46:45Z I don't have much time to update, but I just thought that I would let you all know that I am ok, and doing well. I really miss all of you and wish that someone would send me some mail or a comment. My address is <br />3811 Old Shell Rd.<br />Mobile AL 36608.<br />My court date is in 21 days and I should be able to go home. I hope to see all of you soon. If you would like to call me, my new cell number is<br />7696020 please keep in touch. My b-day party is still being planned. Tell me if you would like to come.<br />Love Always,<br />Lena Brooke Stringer urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:30398 2006-03-23T22:16:16Z 2006-03-23T22:16:16Z Just the "click,click" of the keyboard keys. Sometimes I wonder how this happened to me. I really didn't deserve half of the things that happened in my life. Yes, I admit that I have messed up a buch in my life. I just didn't think that pay back could be such a bitch. No one reads my livejournal, much less commments, and I really don't have any contact with any of my freinds. I hate school, and everything about it. I can't stand Wilmer Hall or anywhere for that matter. I have turned all bittery and shriveled.But I got a car. It is getting fixed. A 2000 Kia Sephia. It's black. But it is automatic and I can't drive an automatic...oooppps!It was my mom's before she died. I really wish that someone would try to keep in contact with me. It is really boring at Wilmer Hall and I want to keep in touch with all of my friends. I don't know if you would like to, but if you would like to write me my address is <br />Lena Stringer<br />3811 Old Shell Rd.<br />Mobile AL, 36608<br /> Please write me, and keep in touch. I will be out of DHR custody in May, but I will probally live in Jackson.I will try to visit some of you if you would like me to. I hope that I can see all of you soon.<br /> Love Always,<br /> Lena Brooke Stringer urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:30037 2006-03-11T23:30:43Z 2006-03-11T23:30:43Z none Well...im here to update again.I really hate things the way they are. I really care about a person, but there is just nothing I can do to help it. I really love "THAT ONE GUY" and I really wanna fix everything that happened between us,but I can't. I love You. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:29719 2006-03-08T22:55:16Z 2006-03-08T22:55:16Z Hello everyone. I update again. If you are a member of the Spirit Of Satsuma, I appreciate your card. If not, you suck. So...How am I doing? I'm faring pretty well, just bored to death, trying to stick it out while I can. I am turning 16 in 4 days. I'm really excited. I hope all of you are excited for me. I have nothing to do, but sit up in Wilmer Hall all week and stare at the lovely walls. How interesting. If you would like to get in touch with me, my address is 3811 Old Shell Rd. Mobile AL, 36608. Mail me!I'm so tired of being here. My Sweet Sixteen will be so SOUR. None of my friends will be there to celebrate it with me. and that sucks sooo bad. Ryan, you nees to update soon so I can comment I need to know what you thought about my letters. PLEASE tell me. Im going crazy!Lol! I guess I will update later you guys...<br />Love Always,<br /><br />Lena Stringer urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:29578 2006-02-22T22:49:27Z 2006-02-22T22:49:27Z None Sometimes I wish I would not have said all of those bad things about my mom. She's dead now,and I really hate the fact that I talked so bad about her. My life is still in shambles and I droped out of Murphy's band. I really hate it. I miss all of my friends, and I wish I could see you guys again.I talked to Ryan Adams, the more I do, the deeper I fall in love with him. I am hoping that somehow there will be a miracle and I will move back to Satsuma and he will once again fall deeply in love with me. But once again that is just on of my wacked fanasties. The more I sit rotting my teenage life away at Wilmer Hall I sit and think...If I was at home,would my mom still have got shot? It really just kills me to think about it. I just want to take everything back.I just want to start over, and have everything back the way it was when I first started highschool. I would go back and change everything. I would have been better friends/girlfriends to all of you. I would have never let you down, but I can only think about what-if. It will never happen.<br />With this I leave you,until later, with hopes that I will always be on your mind,<br /> Love always,<br /> Lena Brooke Stringer urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:29351 2005-12-22T15:57:36Z 2005-12-22T15:57:36Z Hey all. I'm now at Wilmer Hall. It is better than St.MAry's but not as good as home,or my aunts. I could be at my aunts right now, but my mom, she made every problem I had worse. I wish she would quit running her trap,and quit making things worse on me. I'm tired of it, she needs to shut up..... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:29021 2005-12-19T20:41:21Z 2005-12-19T20:41:21Z None I sit here all confuddled, in front of a computer in the choir room. I miss my old life about a year ago, when my only problems were racisim.I have been in custody for 4 months. Yes, four whole months. I miss life. This weekend my dad was allowed to take me out for the weekend. I had fun,I got some new clothes. That means I don't get my car. :(! I'm moving to Jackson,I will try to keep all of you updated. I am really nervous. I miss You, and if you are reading it, you know who you are. I love you. I'll update later. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:28913 2005-12-12T16:22:33Z 2005-12-12T16:22:33Z Oh and the days turn into weeks, and the weeks into months, and soon it will be a year. Yes, I am still freaking out over me and Ryan's breakup. I love him, and It is hard to cope with. I made my mistakes, and I learned soo much, but I wish I could go back and fix the things I did to make it like this. This year he is a senior. I don't think I will ever see him again. I'm guessing that is a good thing from his point of veiw. I like to go back and read my old LJ entries, and think about how happy he made me, and how happy we used to be together. That is the only thing I have to hold onto now. The only thing. I wish I could go back and have 1 more chance with him, on more chance to make everything right, one more chance to let him know how much I do love him. I don't cry in band as often, but I sure as hell feel like it. I have moved on with my life, found another boyfriend, but it feels like no one will ever take the place of him in my heart. If he would just give me a chance to start over again. Sometimes I feel like picking up the phone and calling him... I know that I can't. He would never even talk to me. Everyone tells me to move on, It isn't that easy when you are in love. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:28465 2005-12-07T01:52:21Z 2005-12-07T01:52:21Z none at the present moment Hello all, how are you? Me, I'm fine, jsut sitting here, I miss Jayson so much. I really do. Sometimes I wish I had a normal life like the rest of the people I see every day. The ones who aren't in group homes and don't have STAFF constantly breathing down their necks. I really miss Jayson, and I dont think I can deal with this I think I am getting seperation anxtey.Lol. Its ok, the fact that I can't spell. All of you will get over that eventually. I hope. Maybe one day, my journal will be worthwhile to you all and you will read it and actually comment. That is why I quit commenting on everones journal, not because I am too lazy, because I dont want to. I just wish there were more people who cared about me in this world. I am tired of this place,and all of the people in this world who don't care about me. I wish I can go home soon.So that I can get my life back to normal. It never was normal, I tried to have a normal life, I had a 19 year old, Mexican boyfriend, I was never able to go anywhere. I know that when I get out I will try to fix everything between all of us...<br /> Love Ya All,<br /> Lena Brooke Stringer urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:28244 2005-12-02T15:55:16Z 2005-12-02T15:55:16Z I realize that I dont write anything of any importance, Oh well...I just dont have a really importaint life. I'm with this guy named Jayson, he is really sweet and he is so special to me...Maybe I will get over Ryan soon. I hope so. I have now realized how big of an issue that people make race. I live with 7 black girls who dont really embrace the fact that I'm white as snow. There is a big social gap, I don't know it's odd.I'm really starting to get over this whole DHR thing...It really pisses me off. I'm tired of living at St.Mary's. The only reason why I like it there is because Jayson is there with me. He makes me so happy, I don't know how to describe the way he makes me feel. I hope this is it, I hope that this is it, I hope there is no more heartbreak for me. I am listening to this new Faith Hill song, not by choice, but it makes me think of the situation between me and Ryan<br />I have a few questions for him this song makes me sad...Im never gonna listen to it again. Well I'm so sad... Jayson makes me so happy, but I am not allowed to see him and it's gonna kill me. I hate this keyboard. It makes me so mad, it has a backspace where the space usually is.Oh well....Guess I better Update and move on with my crappy life. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:28128 2005-11-17T15:34:40Z 2005-11-17T15:34:40Z NONE Well i have a really good friend, and I would like to keep her, but you know my luck. It's like the more we talk the closer we get. I really think she is a great person, and I think she might make me feel like I belong. It isn't like you guys dont try, I just fell left out around you, like you have your own, more importaint thing to do than worry about me. I have weird feelings. I just wish I was as closly connected with all my friends as I want to be. Mmmm....well I really like my audit class. I get to get on the internet alot. iM SO BORED AND THERE IS NOTHING ELSE LEFT TO WRITE...<br /><br /><br /> BYE!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:27654 2005-11-15T16:46:00Z 2005-11-15T16:46:00Z Nothing Well I'm failing 2 of my 4 classes. That makes me a talented person. I have always been blessed with that wonderful talent. Maybe it is time to buckle down and quit ingnoring my school work, That would be a good start. I have finally given completly up on Torrey, maybe it is just the fact that I am just a stupid little sophmore, who is not good enough for his godlyness. Figures. Well I'm in audit right now. I cant wait to drive... December 13,14 & 15. Sounds fun on my part. Well Im really bored. I was wondering that if,and when I get out of custody, would any of you want to do anything,like a show, or a party or something. It would be really fun, and I could get closer to you guys; and that is what would make me eternally happy. I doubt it will ever happen. Oh well; I guess I should quit dreaming about stuff that will never happen. I've learned to type better. Thats a happy thing. Now that I can type like Superman, I can update faster, which means you get more info. And thats a good thing. Im really tired of drama. I am having some huge difficulty in the social department. I cant have/keep a friend for a very long time. It sucks. oh well. Im so excited about my court date. The 28, of this month will be awesome, I hope. It will be the day that determines wether or not I get to go home. I hope so.Lol! Well I guess I will go, Later urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:27540 2005-10-07T15:37:39Z 2005-10-07T15:37:39Z I'm sleepy...I ate lots of brownies.I want to go to sleep!Im like really bored.I was trying to watch a movie, but no one in here shuts up...oh well...i guess i'm gonna go. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:27139 2005-10-07T14:21:18Z 2005-10-07T14:21:18Z Fight Song Go,fight Win Satsuma go for a touchdown, Go fight win satsuma victory,Look out we're the gators victory's in sight, go fight win satsuma go maroon and white!! I just thought I would inlighten you. Is'nt it the best song ever? I think so. I dont think we are gonna win tonight tho...oh well...there is always a possibility.Well I gotta go! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:26988 2005-10-06T21:44:12Z 2005-10-06T21:44:12Z A bunch of band kids yapping Band life is so Great! I really like the fact that we can play music, It makes me all happy.I wish I could just fall in a hole. Cuz I like the music and all, but no one else does. AND i dont like no one else (anyone else) I think that changing the show is a completety stupid. I know it's for the better and all, but we only have 3 more games the sugar/champs bowl and a competetion. I dont know, but I REAALLY dont think that we can pull together a WHOLE show in time for friday. Just my opinion. Oh well. Im really waiting to get ooout of St.Marys, probally cuz I hate it there. I really want to spend a whole bunch of time with my freinds. But it didnt even happen when I was home. Maybe things will change. I hope so, cuz I realize now that I took all of you for granted. Maybe I was alittle niave, But you learn from your mistakes. And maybe this is why I got sent to St.Marys so I could respect the fact that I have friends. Well I love all of you , but it's time for me to go.<br /> Love all of you,<br /> Lena Brooke Stringer urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:26865 2005-10-06T15:51:36Z 2005-10-06T15:51:36Z I'm having at least 2 people a day profess their love to me.It's truly getting sad.Im not even that pretty.Things with me and Ryne are ok he still wont write me a letter.That makes me sad.Friday makes a week.I cant wait to get home. Did you know DHR is nothing but lairs. All they do is lie to poor innocent children like me. it truley makes me sad to know that other people are in the same position I am in.It's time to go home. Things wont be the same, because my mom will tuffen up...No more partying, no more life as I used to know it all becase of DHR! I hate them So much.This class is so fun!We are playing volleyball!I really like Ryne,But he isn't enough to get me over Ryan...I still love him and I think I always will.I dont know why I love him.He just makes me all fluttery inside...Still to this very day. I still cant help but to cry when I see him, Because I love him and I want him back So bad! so horribly bad. It's something that will never happen.I can just wish.Did you know David got stabbed. I dont consider me and him dating anymore, becase I got Ryne,but I still care about him!<br /> Well got to go urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:26489 2005-10-05T14:19:01Z 2005-10-05T14:19:01Z Well...Philen is...INSANE! I think he's trying to do whats best for the band, but once you really think about it its not.In the middle of the season, three more games left..."Hey!Let's change the show!" Not just a song or two...the whole cotton picking show.Now i know I'm notthe ideal band student...But why couldn't we just make this year work FOR THREE MORE GAMES end marching season and start over fresh next year with an AWESOME show.Life is life urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bandgeek1418:26221 2005-10-04T14:21:53Z 2005-10-04T14:21:53Z that one song we played in band last year I am bored and decided to update!Yay for updates!Ryne really doesnt write me much,and it makes me all sad and stuff, cuz i like letters.My stomache really hurts...I have gas.I hate St.Mary's I dont have any school shirts.Does anyone have any they are willing to donate?Someone stole my good skirt...now I have to wear this one. I dont like this one!I miss Ryne and junk!I stole his dollar.Yay for dollar!We aren't able to update on the computers at St.Mary's,so that makes me sad. I wish I could be normal like everyone else.